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Is it normal that I think several times per day about killing myself?
Like, how I would do it, where, when i would. I hate myself and I just want to end it sometimes. Often, lately. I’m a fourteen year old girl. I cry constantly. I haven’t eaten anything in the last few days. I’m fat, disgusting, stupid, and I can’t deal with life anymore.
I have nothing to look forward to. I feel like everyone hates and me and I’m just going to die alone.
What can I do? I don’t want to feel like this. I don’t always want to kill myself; somedays I can be happy. I’m happy infront of people, and nobody knows that Im like this by myself.
Help me please. and please don’t say “GO TO THE DOCTOR.” Because I wont. I am not going to. Also, don’t say ‘talk to someone about it’ because there’s no one i can go to. please help.
thanks.
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